Many women live in verbal and physical abuse, feeling hopeless that there is a way out. Are they in another country than where you live? No. Are you they in another city? No, and they may even be in your own neighborhood. One woman may be you.
I remember I used to think It will get better, when he verbally put me down.
I tried so hard to act in ways I thought he would like so that he would speak to me kindly instead of using an emotionless voice to say hate-filled words to me.
Today, I choose to heal emotionally. I choose to surround myself with people who look at me and speak to me in a positive light. If you are getting hurt, whether physically, verbally, or another form, please reach out to a family member, friend, or counselor. You are not alone. christyb? Yes, an ex-partner treated christyb badly and christyb spoke out to people who could help her. She is alive and healthy today. You can be too. I tell you that you can be too.
Here is a poem that gives insight into what some women do face. It is a fictional woman that I write about, but sadly, I fear there is a woman curling up in a corner right now somewhere just like the woman does in the poem.
Your silence blows toward me with the
Force of a hurricane, while
I shake without stirring and take
The position of a curling bug
In the corner of the dark room.
Your words from yesterday still
Linger on my flesh, in the
Form of shivers, and my mind
Fixates on how to fix our joint parts
When you refuse a redesign of your
Angry hands and empty beer cans.
Your body moves slightly in the bed, and
I wonder how the sheets feel against your
Skin of steel that matches your
Stiff vocal tone that you often use to
Blow words of inadequacies toward me.
My mind turns to a sheltered layer of my mind,
A cellar of quiet, and my eyes
Focus on a small spider that moves
Decisively across the wood floor, while
I wait for more wind damage when you awaken.
©2013 Christy Birmingham
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